sick of my life.

again, i slept ard 2am last night. and woke up at 9am..well what happened to me? sleeping late and waking up earli? but the moment i have to work in the morning, i just can't help myself to wake up early!

started my new module since 2 weeks ago, and i began to hate financial accounting on the 3rd lesson, though is something very basic, bt to someone that has no background like me to understand all those transactions and debit creditt....it's seems like big task.maybe i'm just too slow.. i hate numbers. and yet i hav to keep chanting " i like it..."! in order to understand better , i think is better to do some review before lecturer starts teaching the new chapter. thanks to faye(my bestie-my TUTOR) for guilding and please be prepared for upcoming lessonss..

i'm happy tht someone from our gang made a change to her life..should say more than one..

firstly, San, will b returning to Sg and start her teaching lifes in school. WE believe in you and as i always said, live with no regrets. i think u've made a right choice. but we will never know until the day u start work.

2ndly, Mei has ended her rlts with JH and hoping she gets a better man..幸福是要争取的。

3rdly, YW got her new bangs, new start! thought is tiring working and you may not like your working environment, but it actuali train you to be stronger. ( strong in convincing that u can do it) wahaha.. well, i hate my jobs too, i dislike my working hours too, as busy as bee? no, i'm busier than a bee. but i still make myself blogging here cuz i just wana escape a while from the BUSY--NESSS. sometimes it's okay to let things undone, but u'll be really fucked up after that. well , so what? ..

enjoy in wasting time means the time is not wasted.

FAYE...i will pray for u n bless u, hope u got yr job asap..it's hard for a fresh grad bt i think there is always chances. must be observant and don't let the chance slip away... don't be upset if u can't get any jobs, come home for good...Msia n Sg is waiting for u.


i'm still considering Perth or Hong kong..if i were to attend yr convo i gotta take leave from company cuz is sunday,i only have break from monday to thursday. Y is it so hard to apply for leave? cuz i have no time to do make up lesson for my student, and once i hav no time, the boss will just disapprove!! ishhhh, cuz i took a day leave in july for my Bday!! i still haven't had a chance to go margaret river.....!!!!!!!


let's not talk bout all this, june is coming soooon! and i have no break.. busy with test, examss, projects again. hmmm..

so sick of my lifeeee!

我爱random

今天vesak day假期，但依然要上门教课。。看来我又升级了，迟点我看升仙了！but lucky i taught half day only, after that went for K session. had been craving for it! and guess what,4 person only cost me $57.50, that was cheap! why am i writing post in chinese and english? i mean singlish,haha. cuz the tittle says i love random. well, i used to be a very well organised person, as in everything must follow rules,for example set timing to sleep, set a time frame to read booksss or do things according to my plan.. n now seems like i'm going messy..and live without ruless..should i say is a good thing?? life is so fucked up!! had been out for drinking for the past few days..Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon, and Tues (the k session)..sometimes going out too many days in a row can be quite sickening for someone like me to love stay home..yea, but i choose to go out because i think friends are equally important to me too! i just have to make sure i can handle myself properly..hehe..and there is always a way to say NO...


i think i need a lot of sleeps starting tomorrow, i need my life back...i had been sleeping at 2 or 3 plus am recently..not insomnia, but too many outing. or i just ate too full till i cant fall asleep..waiting for my hair to dry.. and now i gonna start some random post again..

random 篇2

什么是爱情？我又来谈爱情了。总是对这门话题没完没了。。时常有不同的见解。。
原来喜欢上一个人，是没有对错的。喜欢不是罪。喜欢上不喜欢自己的人是何等痛苦，但没有人能阻止一个人的情绪。我不能控制你，遥控你，因为原来喜欢也是一种自由。。

今天的你依然保留着原来的昨天
看见你 让我看见了春天
只想走在你身后 等你发现
希望你能转身 向我一面

爱情从来不分对于错
而我们却总是擦身而过
没有想过会有收获
不会躲也不会难过
-incomplete-

gosh....i can't think of any words that rhymess anymoreee. i just can't complete this, well just make it a full stop. .just leave it this way.. wahaha.

say hello to may

有时候，一开始写第一句时，就忘了不知怎该写下去。原先都还有很多点子，但静静坐下时，大脑变迟钝了。也许天气太热吧！最近不知怎么搞的，天气就像疯了似，非常酷热，出门在外简直像进了烤炉一样，热腾腾的。。搞不好中暑就惨了。。要冷气的时候偏偏就没有。。救命！


random篇1
患上老人病。。风湿了。膝盖痛，走路久了又痛，上楼梯也痛。大概出自于50岁以上的老人家口中吧！可不是呢，年纪轻轻的我全都中了，万字头奖也没那么准！我跑去看中医，而他建议我尽量早睡早起，（sounds like mission impossible )，需要运动，促进血液循环。这怎么可能？我不但没有早睡，反而变本加厉。。越来越“早”，根本就不像话了。他还建议我去针灸。。建议挺好，可是去哪里找好的医师呢？为什么会风湿？妈妈说我时常太夜冲凉的关系，在冷气房时常穿短裙造成的。真的那么严重吗？到了此刻也不得不相信了。。晚上睡觉尽量穿长裤以保护膝盖，然后再涂上风湿有才入睡。。我感觉自己超老哦！天气热，穿长裤，让对面同屋的房客看见，还以为我发神经！


random篇2
浪费时间，浪费金钱，浪费青春，浪费生命！应该是我现在的状态吧。
24岁的生活是怎样的呢？工作，读书，周末狂欢，就是生活了吗？最近周末不是电影，吃喝，就是夜店！喝。。喝。。喝酒。。为什么要喝？原来我只是一个无聊寂寞的城市人。不想面对一个人独处的时间吧，难道这样围绕在朋友的身边就充实了吗？我浪费了多少时间在消遣呢？其实不很多，除了忙工作及读书的时间，剩下的就与朋友约会咯。可以说减压吧。娱乐自己的方法。。因为除了工作还是工作，加上读书。。我能挨多久呢？

random篇3
之前video了我自弹唱版最爱，淘汰。。可是upload failed！也许我的版本还未upload就被淘汰。。TMD（他妈的）-我刚学的简略语。听了几百万遍都不腻！或许某些歌让你留下某种回忆，那神奇效应牢牢把你绑在回忆里。

to b continued..

4月的某一天。

刚刚发觉原来我整个4月份没有写blog了，还好今天并不是4月份的最后一天。前几天就是想提早起身来写blog，但却偏偏起不了身，反而现在闲着，就好好利用这时间吧。

突然看见在blog的左边留言格里，多了很多留言，是spam吗？还是真的有人浏览我的page？感觉不对劲呢，怎么可能别人看得见呢？有人那么无聊来看我写的无聊篇嘛？我写blog也纯粹为了发泄，减压，了解自己，检讨自己，就像是自给的“日记心声”吧，不不不，“月记”，才对，一个月才几篇！

就在上个星期四，认识了好多朋友，全都是日本人和韩国人，是在参与了日本老师的小聚会而结识的，然而相约吃饭的机会也多了。原来他们全都是expat，在新加坡工作。而喜欢找吃的我，不怕没有人陪了！

4月。。。。考试已完了，接下来5月的new module也将开始，希望能跟得上吧。越来越忙，几乎每天在工作，off day也上门教钢琴。。排得满满的，为了什么？$$$$这么重要吗？对，目前对我来说是，所以我知道我的目标是什么，我要的是什么，再辛苦我也不怨。时间很快过的。。（我还嫌不够呢），挨多几年，再撑下去吧！可是怕的是什么呢？我怕有一天突然猝死。。就犹如报章上时常看几某某人在睡梦中走了，某某人突然不知为何倒地，也跟着升天了。。再不然超劳过度，累死了。。。我要为自己加油噢！要保持健康平衡的生活作息才能！
但很难啊。。想找一些私人空间休息都没有。。（是借口吗？）好友刚毕业，踏入社会工作不久，就听她说好累，比读书还要累，因为得每天准时早起上班。那我又要忙工作，忙读书，忙吃喝玩乐，。。。真的不敢想象我能做到。。不过，我的身体功能好像老人家一样。。机器样样坏。。皱纹也多几百条。。！有时累坏时，真想辞职不干！做自己不喜欢的工作是何等折磨。。。！！唉。。。。！

再过几天又回怡保。（劳动节假期）是时候看医生了。。膝盖又痛！风湿还是没有了胶原蛋白质？二十几来岁就脚痛。在多几年。。难以想象。。！

3月份的最后一天！

home sweet home! back to my home,surrouded by my dogs..meeting up friends.nothing could be better than this, enjoying the art of doing nothing! no works, no rushing here and there, that's what i called R-E-S-T. perhaps jut an excuse for procastination. i shouldn't had rest again as i just came back from my holiday! the shop-till-you-drop Hong Kong trip!! muahahaa..didn't really spent a bomb there but the shopping part was fantastic! so basically, my daily routine while resting is, waking up in the morning, singing K. there is this karaoke set in my home (my sis is the future singer..wuahahaha) hmmm pity the neighbourss, arouse by my sweeet voice! then will be freee for the whole day. driving my car, be my sis's driver..hmm..aren't i suppose to study for my exam？what's the point to bring back my text book?

alright, i am going to start my revision later. *cross finger*!!!

isn't it weird that i'm typing in english?? yes forcing myself to do that, so that i won't forget this language! english. yup, nowadays we hadrly speak or write proper english. what we are using are merely Singlish or Manglish. it seems that is the trend already. even blacks n whites use their short form, internet words too...you have to catch up with the latest trendy words orelse you will be way outdated! i have to spend time googling internet words which i take so long to understand, like ROFL..hahaah..and there are actually a long list of these 20th century words! really OMG!! though mine are not good english, but at least i am trying hard to do my part well. my exam is coming soon, and is just another week to go! god damn it. is english paper. have to write essay, do summary!!!! hmmm, what a task！learning language is fun, but applying it will be something different! but practices make perfect! even if is not perfect, it will still be better ( i guess) as long as it will not go practices make worst...-.-" blogging is part of my procastination....shooooo, better stop here, and continue someday when i'm emo...kekeeke.

randomly..

chapter 1
不要问我是一个怎样的人，因为我也不了解自己！我就是哪种心情起伏大起大落的人！有时你还真以为我从疯人院释放出来的呢!认真起来，野蛮霸道起来，放纵任性时，你恨不得想把我掐死！心情容易被环境渲染！看见你笑，我未必会笑；但看见你哭，我一定比你哭得还厉害！最讨厌看感人流泪伤感的电影，因为不喜欢酸溜溜的心情！

好友来信息说她在emo-ing。哭了好久，虽然不知道真正原因，但我想她心情一定很不好受，也许压力很大吧！你离我太远了，要不然我会陪你一起哭，紧抱着你，再带你去吃吃吃。。hehe..EMO!什么叫emo?时不时都会有人说我在emo..这词汇已越来越普遍了，我也常用，管它真正的意思！对我来说，就是闹情绪！情感线交错了，犹如“搭错电线”的感觉，整个脑子stuck.什么也不想做，不愿想！ 除了宁静能让我好过，最近发现相反的“吵闹”也能让心情好起来！我指的是沉醉在大声，吵闹，好的音乐里！music really heal ones soul..

chapter 2
在fb里看了候佩岑与鲁豫有约的片段，说到“人生其实只不过是一个过程”，对！我很赞同！每一分每一秒，都只不过是过程。你空空手来到这世界，也将空空手离开。所谓名句后半句“我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩”！人生很奥妙，我们无法知道自己的寿命，不知何时会飞来横祸，你我根本无法预测。所以，珍惜眼前的一切，不管是开心的，难过的，悲欢离合，爱或仇恨，都要珍惜！因为我们还活着，还有生命去感受这一切。即时你有千万身家，是个鼎鼎有名的大人物，还是无名小卒，倘若你一死了，什么也不在重要了！
如果在世的每人只想着要开开心心，哪反而它的生命就没那么精彩了！当我们身在逆境时，就是这时刻让我们看见自己最弱的一面。你害怕的，不想面对的，束手无策的。。。你会停留在哪里还是继续前进呢？

chapter 3
死。你怕吗？我怕。但并不代表我每天都要担心几时会死啊。可是对一个癌症病患者来说，如果得知自己的寿命只有短短几个月，哪又是怎样的心情呢？没有一个人想面对，也没有人会想为自己的生命倒数。但是如果明白了生老病死只是一个过程，不要太偏于执著，面对它，反而活得更好。说当然比做容易，可是说的都是事实。要有勇气去面对很艰难，但这就是人生嘛。有些人英年早逝，或突然暴毙，或是更不幸的遇上天灾人祸，哪只有接受命运了。任命不代表低头，每件事的发生都有原因，就如佛学说的因果循环。或许前世的因，带来今世的果。因为我深切相信轮回与报应。
婆婆今年迈进90岁了，因为曾经给算命师批命，说她寿命大概90，所以她每天都很害怕，怕自己时日无多。这一切确实让人看了很心疼。我觉得婆婆的心不好受，也不会快乐，因为她放不下。如果持着这么一颗心继续前进，哪怕每天郁郁寡欢。。蔽出病来！我知道没有人能长命百岁，我只希望她能坦然地面对人生，在还未为生命花上句点时能开开心心渡过每一天!

1st or march

omg....i had not signed in for a month and there was no post in february! and now it's march!
what had i been doing lately? sleeping late! doing unnecessary stuffs?

时间总是不知不觉流逝。。来检讨上个月是否白过了呢？嗯。。因为农历新年嘛，而且２月只有２８天！加上大概忙着赶ｐｒｏｊｅｃｔ及复习吧！应该不算白过。。终于完了，现在在等４月份的考试！这段时期该好好放轻松，旅行回来再来冲！对，我要去玩了！太久没出走，感觉不自在！哈哈！原本想去台湾，但跟团出发的团费太贵了，最后还是改了地点，自助去香港吧，ｉｓ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｓｈｏｐｐｐｉｎｇ！

两个礼拜前买了ｉｐｈｏｎｅ４，才发觉前所未有的，超棒的ａｐｐｓ，实在太方便了。一向来都是“电子”（ｅｌｅｃｔｒｏｎｉｃｄｅｖｉｃｅｓ）白痴，创祸的机会陆续有来！


我的ｉｐｈｏｎｅ！




最近很多同学都毕业了，是时候踏入社会工作，而我恰好相反。。开始为我的画纸展开起点了，我不知道终点在哪，该怎样去完成我幅画，但第一步已开始了，将要走的路再难，也该走下去！