Thursday, May 31, 2012

last day in May

i'm halfway doing my project and suddenly has the urge to write something...
well, went to library this morning and suppose to get some books.. but after picking up all the books i realized i had forgotten my library card ><" spend an hour time browsing through those books and ended up walking off empty handedly~~~~

chapter 1
又转语言了。。怎么啦。。人感觉老了,才25就已觉得像52了,之前还很有魄力的我现在动不动就感觉累了,难道女人25以后开始衰老?膝盖又再次痛了。风湿了吗?还是之前时常穿短裤睡觉引起呢?还未到需要看医生的地步,就先忍着看着办吧。少点喝酒,忌太多的冷食,早点冲凉吧。。唉,才凌晨1236就累了。。我公司的老板上星期逝世了,而老板娘在事发一星期后才贴通告通知,连给白金的机会也没有。。事发好突然,平日看起来健健康康的突然间说走就走,详情不大清楚,只知道是患病了。。人生真的很难预料,真的今日不知明日事。。非好好把握今天不可。还有另一件更意外的事,一位旧同事突然间不能走了,事情发生在2011年的12月,而我是过了整5个月(上个星期)才从另一位同事口中得知的,简直是吓了一跳!(平时少八卦,什么事都不晓得)今天探望了她才进一步了解她的状况。。虽然我不是医生,但见了面,和她谈了大约1个半小时,让她有多点人陪伴(她呆在家整半年了)又赶着去教课。。她因为突如其来的行动不便让她不能出门,(出门都是去复诊吧。。)她开始闷得发慌,糟透了。。这令我想起每天在家90岁的外婆。。每天都留在家,孩子也全都有各自的家庭,也不能时时刻刻都陪伴左右。还好有位没有结婚的阿姨和外婆一块儿住,这样才比较方便有照应。。。只不过老人家想必有她的心事。(甚少出门的心理总必会有少许心结吧,譬如对孩子孙儿的思念,担心自己一个人会发生什么意外等等。。)趁每一位还尚在人间,一定要多珍惜每一个人,每一件事。就算再不喜欢再讨厌,再怎么怎么的,告诉自己,人生苦短,而且也只是在这一世才有的,下一世也不知是否再有缘了。。突然写着写着,我想家了。。

chapter 2
人,不停在成长。每一个年龄,每一个阶段,都有不同的想法。看的事情多了,(看除了用眼,也用心去感受),自然思维也逐渐成熟。。小的时候想长大,现在终于明白那时候的大人为什么总是说做小孩好。最近都时常有股冲动,想放假半年或一年环游世界。。累了,真的累了,发觉很多事情豪无意义。。如果一昧顾虑,想必一定去不成,但出发前一定要做好准备功夫才行。一个人的旅程不知是怎的呢,背包又有什么含意呢?我这么麻烦挑剔的女生能顶得住吗?沙发客安全吗?一大堆的问题都会涌出来。。在加上时常看旅游书籍博客等,越来越有推动力了。。只是欠个决心而已。。每当看着作者描绘的字眼或看着触动心悬的照片,内心都有很大的感动,非笔墨能形容的,就是那泪在眼眶打滚,因为世界的美而感动的眼泪!读了好多地方,想去的地方也越来越多,真不懂该如何列出来。。未免我忘记,脑海里还记得的几个地点,真的非要去不可。。
Chile看moai..Peru的machu picchu,Africa的Serengeti..tibet.....
游整个欧洲。。。。

P/S : 人生最重要的事,不是您现在站在何处,而是您今后要朝哪个方向。只要方向对,找到路,就不怕路远。但可悲的是:有的人一生原地不动;有的人一辈子没有方向;还有的人大半辈子是在找那条路;总有些人,终于找到了路,却又困惑地退了回来。。。

又是时候睡觉了。。。

Thursday, May 17, 2012

May..

well, i told myself no matter how busy i am, at least one month a post..but i didn't manage to follow my words. it had been few months since my last blog.it had been a month since i came back from my trip (Turkey and Greece), finally i am here to start blogging...trip was amazing! perhaps i could spend longer time and explore every little place.. maybe long time never write anything, brain stuck...can't think of any words. pictures speak thousand words.. some snapshots during my trip..
Istanbul,Turkey
Parthenon @ Athens, Greece
Mykonos, Greece
love the windmills, blue and white building and lovely kitties everywhere! since i've uploaded all the pictures in my Facebook account, so will just continue with my words..

Chapter 1 (warming up)
frankly speaking, my life is full of shiiitt.. what kind of shit, nah is still busy and still busy..bloggin at 2.10am and waking up early in the next morning is tiring,(my body bio clock is not listening to me anymore) so normally when i have time,(don't really consider have time,i guess)will spend on doing other task..i know i need to write something and wanna do it few weeks ago but it is just not the right time. thank god that i dont need to wake up that early tomorrow morning,so here i log in to blogger and realize my last post was actually in february. had missed 2 months didn't write a single word, so when it comes to bloggin now, it seems way harder than i thought! and my english....oh no, i can't get it write or put it in proper sentence..

Chapter 2
i am graduating in August and wondering should i continue my degree course? what an old lady to study! ( i read yerterday's newspaper and came to know that a 57 years old man graduate in US, he was a cleaner, studied english for 7 years to improve on it and 12 years for his part time uni course), so i am not qualified to say old yet! there is no age limit to study! if i have the chance i would love the study till the day i die...wahahaah...so i am in dilemma. it is not cheap to study degree and imagine i am paying by myself ( i don't want loan, i hate paying interest), study in a different field and change my job, start from zero again..hmmm.. that's what i am always thinking and thinking..should i ? should i not? when most of the people say i am silly, giving up a good job and do something different and can see a pay cut....i start to ponder...work for salary$$ ?? dream??? passion?? i am so sick of my teaching life.. and my life now (working, free-lancING, studying.....)for what sake? i even have a wild idea, NO study NO working, but travel and working around the world, yes I am serious, but i do have many thigns to concern...human are always like this,,THINK TOO MUCH, but if do without planning, sounds pretty random and bad too...

by the way, just to share with you guys a site if you love travelling and knowing people from around the world, you can stay over at the peoples' place for free, check this out and u know what i am referring to..
www.couchsurfing.com/

or working volunteer
www.the7interchange.com/
www.thevoluntourism.org/
www.workaway.info/
www.wwoof.org

travelling is a great book, seeing the world, the people, the culture..it is a journey of life..you don't need to be rich to travel,you don't need to travel far and consider is a TRAVEL..start observing from your current place now,the people, the buildings, the scene and the scent.. do a little walk and you will be amazed..最好的旅行不在于用眼睛去看,而是用心去体会!

i am tired and i shall continue again....nitezzz