Wednesday, August 25, 2010

EMO-ing

JAY's songs made me EMO again..such an emo freak..had spent 3 hours listening to his songs. i would'nt said that's a waste of time, indeed i felt a lot relief and good cuz i don't need to rush to work like hell..i love this song so much.

especially the lyrics go "after saying goodbye and will never meet again", i wonder will this happen to me too?? liking someone bt trying to convince myself not to? arghh.. letting go but feel so wana together deeply in my heart...be tough lulu!





i will be missing u silently...

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

untitled

不知道远方的你 还好吗
好想跟你说句话
却怕扰乱了你
如果没有这件事
结局又会是怎样
因为我的三心两意
久久未能决定
搞得如此僵局

如果我再拖下去
对你不公平
也显得了我的自私
而我很肯定做了这选择
就不能回头不能后悔
那就放手
已在捉不到 听不到 看不到
只能悄悄为你祷告

你是我的秘密
我只能把你搁置在心的角落
不能回到过去
就只有冷冻记忆
不介意孤独
因为有时比爱你还舒服
当寂寞难耐时
我也会静静想你
总比找你好

喜不喜欢
习不习惯
到现在还找不到答案
生活也有点混乱
单身是茫然
但是恋爱也彷徨

现在依然喜欢听着周杰伦的歌
很多人说他咬字不清
样子不帅
而我看到了他的美
他作的曲 填的词
都陪伴了我无数的日子

Saturday, August 21, 2010

lousy song by lulu.(-.-)




some wrong notessss and a little out of tune...grrrr firs time video-ing...kekeke..for fun only!!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

is for u,my dear! all bout loves.

当爱变成负荷
大部分破坏爱情或友情的原因,并非对方犯下什么天大的错误,而是对对方产生过度的期望。
怎么说呢?大部分人对于情人或友人都有着太多的期望,希望他们能依照自己的想法行事,有些甚至以超过父母的威严要求对方。也就是说,人们有着很强的占有欲与支配欲,在不自觉之中,想拥有对方,还想控制与改变对方。
-你是否经常告诉对方他们必须这样做,而不能那样做呢?或者告诉对方,他们应该做这个,不应该做那个呢?
-你是否觉得对方常犯一些明知道你最讨厌的事,于是你不禁怒火中烧呢?
大多数人都有期望,期盼事情如何演变,期盼他人如何表现。于是,你一直努力地要改变对方,不停地唠叨,叮咛,不断地挑剔,指责,希望对方做的跟你想得一模一样。当对方试图抗拒,大声反驳时,你便充满委屈或老羞成怒地说“我还不是为你好!”

许多人在面临“做得正确”与“过得幸福”的抉择时,往往选择前者。因为他们只容许对方和自己这么做。你知道吗?许多分手的情侣或离婚的夫妻,往往只为了芝麻小事,闹得死去活来。

世上没有一条通往爱情的永恒道路,除非你能真正付出温柔并心意相投。爱,要不断地支持和付出。能爱是一种福气,懂得爱则是一种智慧。

让爱自由
婚姻(或热恋中的情侣)维持的时间久,并不代表就是成功的婚姻。许多人维持婚姻,只是出于对未知的惧怕,或懒得改变现状,过一天算一天。这是非常遗憾的事。

婚姻只是一个形式,两人终身在一起生活,必须努力的过程非常长远,一切要尊重对方,处处为对方设想,而不是去支配他。Wayne Dyer对爱的定义,“让所关爱的人可以选择自己所想所爱,而不坚持对方一定要迎合你”。简言之,就是不要试图操纵你的另一半。

爱不是占有,也不是财产,而是让对方做他自己。许多人以为戴在手上的婚戒就如同穿在鼻上的鼻环一样,可以控制对方,老是管东管西。“你照我的意思做,否则我就。。。”,“因为我爱你,所以你必须完全属于我所有!”这都是占有的心理作祟。要知道,伴侣需要的不是婆婆或妈妈,而是朋友与情人。

糖太多的饮料难以入口,爱太多的照料也叫人难以忍受。爱一想占有,就会出恨。控制欲使人的距离变得疏远,你越是霸道,对方就越会远离。受伤动物的第一个反应就是“逃”。

爱,是一个人能够像珍视自己一样,珍视所爱的人成长,为他自己,以他自己的方式生活,而不是将对方改造成你心中的版本。如果你试图控制他,他就无法活在自己生命中的人。

别让爱变成彼此的伤害,也别把感情的空间看得那么狭隘。当你知道“爱”是时刻怀着关心和忧愁时,又怎么忍心彼此折磨呢?

有一句老话,爱必须先放开手;等到它又回头时,你才懂得真正的爱。就像太阳的光芒,你不一定要拥有太阳,也可以享受到煦煦的暖阳,不是吗?

p.s : dear, i don't know if it helps, bt i read it somewhere, wana share with u. hope u have a nice dayss.

17th august.

chapter 1
well, had been MIA for some times from blogging, finally nw back to working mode. robot mode.everyday is still the same.doing things like a robot. bt i begin to feel tht time is too little for me.there's 24 hours a day,bt after deducting my working time and etc, left only very little time for myself(my PEACE of time) how can i spend my time wisely without wasting it?i think facebooking is actually a waste of time..well, u may thought tht is something u mz do everyday, just like checking mails.hmmm.. bt is time to limit my time on this website.well , i do find tht sleeping is a waste of time too, bt lack of sleep will cause a lot of problems, how can i balance it? still trying hard to work out!

chapter 2
time fliess.my sis had been working here for 3 weeks, though v r sharing room nw, bt i feel a lot happier! finally i dun hav to face the walls everynite..at least there's someone for me to nag.n v do chat, finally i feel warmer!

chapter 3
recently i went for piano lesson for myself, not teaching, bt learning from teacher. i never play difficult songs like wut i did last time while learning, indeed i only play simple songs. and it's reali amazed me. and now only i realise music is such an abrstract art that no words can describe! i was there to learn how to listen! and to understand music really need deep knowledge, i m just far too shallow. i really feel like quitting my job as a teacher as i don't wana ruin my students' future. well i can alw upgrade myself to be a better teacher. bt i knew that is not wut i want! i don't have great passion on it. in order to b the best and be successful in any field, one must start around their passion and their expertise.and i m really sick of wut i am doing now,i feel tired, i feel like that's just a job to get my monthly paycheck to earn a living only..y m i feeling tired n bored, because i don't reali like tht. and u will often hear ppl complaining bout their jobs. why? they have to work because they nid to survive! work for money bt not passion! mum always said , nw $$ come first, forget bout those so called passsion..!! grrrr.. have u ever wondered why Bill Gates,the rich guy who is worth US$46 billion still works 18 hour days, every single day? why doesnt he juz sit back n relax on the beach? the reason is because he is doing wut he likes, his love of being at the forefront of technology! he wont feel tired of his work and that's y he successs! i still believe when u give your best to whatever u are crazy about, u will become the best! when v r doing something v loves, the motivation, focus and discipline always come naturally!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

helpless.

well, another earli morning! couln't really fall asleep.as usual, sleeping wake. waking sleep. the feeling is hard.why things happened so fast when you don't expect to happen in tht way?

arghh, no point dwelling the past. i have to take my nx step and focus on doing things. bt f*ck,lack of concentration nw, "something" can jz pass thru yr mind and keep bothering u..and that thing realli weaken my day. can i jz make myself feel better? yea, there's always a way. EAT. ya, eating makes me happy when i'm happy. eating do numb me when i'm nt. eating tastelessly without knowing if u are full, juz down myself with food non-stop..though i know numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when i finally feel it.

i'm trying to forget something, bt as i mentioned in the earlier post, the more u try to forget, the more u're trying to remind yrself.you REMEMBER when you try to FORGET.arghhh.*frustrated* i can't even focus on my work.

i hate writing post earli in the morning because it shows that i cant catch a good sleep the day before, it means earli in the morning feeling moody throwing my feelings here! bt wut else i can do? talk to my frens? and yet u know nodody can help? and making myself annoying? frens may listen to u, bt is no good to bother them when i don't even know what to do! crying wil help, is the best solution when u know nothing.don't wana do anything. it release some kind of hormone that will soothe my mind when i'm crying.is alright, all the while i've been alone, all by myself, i think i will be fine.never scare of loneliness as it makes people stronger. i jz need to distract myself with soemthing else...in the mean time....i reali nid to look for sth to do.i wana FOCUSSSS.and FOCUS.

giving up on something may not be a very big deal, bt making someone giving up on u is actually the greatest pain.

i never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to lose something u never really had.what i can tell myself is "don't worry about losing, if it is right, it happens, the main thing is not to hurry, nothing good gets away".

-peace-..-silence-.. i can only describe my dae in grey.
why is that so hard for me to make a decision? what's wrong with me? what's going wrong? what's holding back? why i cant follow my heart? because i used to have a better head than heart? doing things without thinking properly will ruin everything, so i try to be rational, not following my feeling so much. well ,what i get? nothing. is nothing.trying to convince myself, everything will be fine. everything will be good.

is sad. is pain. is unhappy. bt i know i gonna be okay. maybe a day, a week or a month. i m not going to think. not going to care. is alright what you gonna say about me, is alright what u gonna think about me. silence. silence is gold. it doesn harm, doesn hurt. make no pain.

juz make an end to everything. i hate my life.

Monday, August 2, 2010

wake up,LULU.

有点困扰,却身在其中,看不清自己的局势,那就尝试扮演另一个角色,给自己忠告吧!

“如果你要学会游泳,却不敢踏进游泳池,那就是你在“想”学,而并非“要”学。想和要是两件完全相反的事。你抱着怎样的心态,就被那种心态操纵。少了那股“要”的推动力,往往有很多可能的事都被认定了输局。缺乏了自信及坚持是促使失败的因素之一。因为习惯了安稳的作息生活,却不愿改变,以求一切平淡,平凡的日子,那很肯定的是,日子会一样好过,就是一层不变! 如果你满足了,那就很好。但你想要下一步能更好,就要向未知挑战。当然不是无知的接受新事物,而凡事都要有策略的进攻。世上没有不劳而获的事,没有付出努力得来的收获是短暂的。岁月不留人,拖延而耽误了前进是有害的。没有人会因为你的停止而改慢步伐。太阳一样会绕,日子一样要过。要改变的是自己。”

待续